Tears

What the… ?! I am crying!! I don’t even remember when was the last time I was laughing soo much! I feel my tears running down my face. I can’t talk, I have no voice. Not that I am trying to say anything but my throat, my lungs, my chords, everything is blocked. My jaw as well, I can’t close my mouth. My abs are hurting! How much time have I been shaking!?

I can’t stop, but I like it. I didn’t expect it, I guess that’s the best of it. This reaction is giving me happiness for the rest of the year. I wish I could repeat this moments anytime I wanted. Yeah, of course I can look for them but this, this only happens in an unknown combination of things. Not the jokes, not the memes, nothing. Maybe that story, that friend, that unexpected moment and… you can’t stop. Imagine if you could recreate this reaction by yourself at any time, how many times would you do it? Or when? This is the crying’s best use case for sure. Why do these extreme happiness moments trigger tears? I am sure there are plenty of simple studies explaining this, I have to read one of those one day. Anyway, I am sure that if I could choose to get to this excitement on my own anytime then it would not be this special, that’s clear.

It seems I can control my breath now; wow it is hot here now. I start to feel relaxed, little by little. Get some air. I slowly remove the tears that are running down my cheeks and actually, it is a bittersweet feeling, when will this happen again?